REST IN PEACE WOLFY......

ok, so friday (6/20) after i got off work, i went to wal*mart.. mom was outside on break when i got there so i went over and was talking to her.. she told me that our 17 year old cat wasn't doing very well, so i told her i'd be over to the house after i got my shopping and stuff done.. so i went over there, and i almost cried.. wolfy was really thin and weak.. mom said he hadn't eaten cat food in 2 weeks, and the only thing she could get him to eat was tuna... she gave me his dry food and some kitty treats because he wouldn't eat them.. i told her to call me if anything changed.. saturday morning i was doing some work outside and i came in the house and checked my phone.. there was a voicemail from mom... she had been crying and said for me to give her a call as soon as possible... so i knew what had happened... so i called her, and she told me how he couldn't walk, and when he did try to walk, he stumbled and fell down, and how he wouldn't even lick the juices out of the tuna can anymore... so she took him to the animal hospital at 10:30 am and had him euthanized.. i held back while i was on the phone, but as soon as we hung up i started crying... am i stupid for crying over a cat?? i don't know... all i know is that when i went to mom's today, i thought i was going to cry again because i'm so used to walking in the door and wolfy being right there... i guess i need to spend more time with my fuzzy...


~*R.I.P. WOLFY... YOU WILL BE MISSED*~

tagged!!

Weird Facts About Myself The Rules:Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird, random, facts, habits or goals about yourself. At the end, choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names & why you tagged them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment saying “You’re it!” & to go read your blog. You cannot tag the person that tagged you, so since you’re not allowed to tag me back; let me know when you are done so I can go read YOUR weird/random/odd facts, habits and goals.


1.) i have a bad habit of picking at split ends in my hair.. they drive me nuts...

2.) i have a smiley face smile under my belly button from my surgery...

3.) i am deathly afraid of clowns....

4.) i have always wanted my own truck... now i have one!!! :D

5.) i'm trying to catch up with a lot more people from high school.... that way every day at work when dj casey asks me what's new, i can actually tell him something about someone... lol

6.) i have a horrible work record...

7.) i have 3 half brothers, 1 step-brother, 1 step-sister, 1 ex-step-brother, 1 ex-step-sister, 2 brother-in-laws, and 2 sister-in-laws...

8.) i have 1 mom and 4 dads... (loooong story)

9.) i love thunderstorms!!!! but i can NOT drive in lightning... but if i'm a passenger, it's fine...

10.) i would give anything to be a mommy....




**now i can't tag a bunch of people, because i don't know a bunch of people.... haha.. bu i did this for you liza!!! and, yes, i would LOVE to see you and the girls at the end of july when you come back!!! i'm of work every friday during he summer.. and if i were to have to work, it would only be like 4 or 5 hours in the morning...

back to work

so i went back to work monday.. i got lucky that i didn't have to find a "new" job and go through the training period again.. matt and nick took me back at ewh spectrum, and i am so grateful for them giving me another chance!! i'm on first shift and i love it.. but... i'm not quite adjusted to the early morning thing yet.. or the going to bed early thing either... so i decided that i need to figure some way to fall asleep earlier at night because i almost fell asleep behind the wheel at 5:30 this morning... they're changing the schedule at work, too.. instead of 6 am to 2:30 pm monday through thursday and 5 am - 1:30 on friday, my new schedule (effective june 23rd) is 5 am - 3:30 pm monday through thursday... i'm excited about it.. i'll have every friday off (unless they make us work overtime)!! and that'll save me 45 miles on a tank of fuel by not having to drive to bellefontaine fridays.. oh-- speaking of driving.. jason got a new truck yesterday.. he traded in our 99 dodge cummins for a 2000 ford powerstroke.. and by him doing this means he'll not be driving out new silver dodge gas truck, and that means i can finally sell the imapala and drive what i want to!!! so it was a good thing for him to trade in the truck that i love, but never got to drive.. because it was his.. now i have my own truck... oh-- and the gas mileage isn't going to hurt me because the truck i'll be driving gets 20.57 miles per gallon, and my impala gets 20.58 miles per gallon..... i mean, sure after a while that .01 gallons will add up through the ears, but oh well.. it's only money and you can't take it with you, right????? ok, well i'm starting to fall asleep while i'm typing, so bye bye!!!!!!!

ouch

so yesterday, pocahontas and carla came up with the kids o go swimming because it was 90+ degrees outside and 100% sunny... we had an amazing time!! but... i should have listened to jason... i thought i'd be okay without sunblock.. WRONG!!!! so needless to say, i can't lift my arms above my shoulders, i couldn't sleep worth a darn last night, and it hurts to have a shirt on today... oh.. and i'm doing it all over again tomorrow.. wish me luck!!

my dog broke my microwave..... true story

don't ask me why, but she did.. about 15 to 30 minutes after my alarm clock started yelling in my ear, i heard a HUGE crash / bang / boom sound... thinking that something happened to my father-in-law, i jump out of bed, throw open my door, and look towards the kitchen.. and what do i see?? my microwave, microwave cart, and all the pots and pans that were on the microwave cart scattered around the kitchen.. and i know that the microwave cart didn't just fall over and dump stuff off of it, because the cart was on the other side of the kitchen as well... yea.. we have metal things that we put in the windows so our dogs can't just jump through the window, and apparently she got her head caught in one, and it got tangled with the power cord on the microwave and she was scared and took off running.. but needless to say, i need a new microwave... lol.. just thought i'd share this story, because it's kinda cute and really funny!!

two completely different topics.....

I have been having some rather weird dreams lately, and I'm not sure why.. In all my life, I have NEVER had a single dream about my dad... Well, that changed Sunday night.... I had a dream that my dad called me at 2:15 in the morning and said that he needed me to come to the hospital because they needed my blood to do a transfusion on him because he was in a serious car accident, but not to hurry because he only had 15 hours to live... For some reason, it took me 10 hours to get to the hospital, and by the time I got there, he had passed away... Where this came from, I have NO idea.... Then, Monday night I had another dream about him... I can't remember the details about this one, only that it was about my dad... I haven't dreamt about him in the last two nights, but I'm still feeling kind of weird about it all.. I don't know... Does anyone ever know what dreams truly mean??

On another note.. We went to 4 Wheel Jamboree last weekend.. Had a BLAST!!! Friday we drove in the cruise route all day, and it was okay, but Saturday was AMAZING!!! We took my five year old nephew Ryan with us, and we parked along the cruise route. Ryan and I walked around for a while, and he got a corn dog and bought a toy 4-wheeler.. Then he heard something about Monster Trucks on the speakers, so we went to the grand stands to check it out, and we ended up watching the Monster Truck mud drags.. It was pretty cool, but Ryan didn't want to stay and watch the freestyle, so we went out, and he bought a poster and key ring that was team Ramminator (the Dodge Monster Trucks - Ramminator and Rammunition), and then he bought a FOOT LONG CORN DOG!!!! This thing was as tall as his upper body!!! I just wish that I would have taken a picture of him with this corn dog!!! When we were walking back to our truck, one of the sherrif deputies stopped and was talking to Ryan, and asked him if the corn dog was good, and Ryan said "It's the best darn corn dog I've ever had!!"... It took everything I had to not start laughing right there, because it was SO cute, and so matter-of-fact... When we got back to the truck, we sat there for a few hours and watched the trucks driving, and Ryan liked that better than the Monster Trucks I think.. He kept telling me to tell the trucks to blow smoke.. After we left Jambo, we took Ryan back to my mom and Doug's house, and Jason and I headed to Tug-a-Truck.. It was AWESOME!!!! We saw a guy blow his transmission, another guy had his tire fall off, and then there was a BEAUTIFUL old Ford that caught on fire.. I think that the funniest part was the people though... A bunch of drunk rednecks watching trucks... Oh, and a film crew from Trucks Gone Wild was there too!!! It was TOO COOL!!!! So, needless to say, I was EXHAUSTED by the time Sunday came around..

Getting ready to watch the Monster Trucks

Rammunition

Ramminator

Watching the Cruise Route

My 2 FAVORITE guys ever!!!!!

friends

i had a good night.. even with the rain showers and the cloud of sadness that was hanging over everyone... today was cody's viewing (which i didn't know about until about an hour before it was over)... tomorrow is cody's funeral... and tomorrow night at the mack they're going to have a memorial service for cody.. all the guys are going to do a dedicated ride.. i want more than anything to go, but it all depends on jason.. and i hate that.. but, i guess when you're married you have to make sacrifices..

but on a good note... i got to see lauren tonight!!! and i realized exactly how much i've missed her.. it has been aweful without her around!!! i had such a good time with her, and even despite our falling out, we still made it through it.. i am so glad to have her back in my life.. i hope we don't ever have another falling out like this, because i was so sad and miserable without her, i don't want to do it again!!! but ok.. time for bed...

R.I.P. Cody Trent.... :*(

C

As we all have realized recently people can be taken from us in the blink of an eye without any warning. Life isn't a game, it's a priveledge. That you need to live life to it's fullest, so every day tell everyone how much you care about them. Never forget old friends and don't be afraid to make new ones. This message was created in memory of Cody Trent from Kenton, OH who was a great friend to many and the father of a 9 month old little boy. Cody lost his life on his way to work around 6:00 a.m. on April 30, 2008 in an automobile accident. Please keep this message going to let everyone know that we will always have Cody in our hearts. R.I.P. Cody.. You will never be forgotten.....

ok, so i've heard this song a million and a half times, but i never really listened to the words.. until the other night.. and as i sat there, dumbfounded by this amazing, inspiring, wonderful song, i realize one thing... this is what i'm going through... i'm trying to learn that i am okay just the way i am, and that no matter what i do i'll always want to be better... and listening to this song, i started realizing that i need to be happy with me because i'm me... so i'm trying it out, and it seems to be working.. i haven't had that many bad days lately, and i'm starting to think positive... but just read the lyrics to the song, and you'll understand it...


"Learning To Live With Me"by Gary Allan

I used to wish that I was
Great as any man
Better than I am
Could do things no one can
And I used to wish that I was cool as I could be
But now I'm learning to live with me


Is anybody satisfied with who they really are
You could be the moon
And still be jealous of the stars
You gotta learn to swim
If you can't walk upon the sea
So I'm learning to live with me

And I used to wish that I was
Braver than the rest
A hero nothin' less
A big duke in the west
But I know the way I am is who I'm gonna be
So I'm learing to live with me


Is anybody satisfied with who they really are
You could be the moon
And still be jealous of the stars
You gotta' learn to swim
If you can't walk upon the sea
So I'm learning to live

Learning to forgive
Learning to live with me


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ok, so what do you think? pretty powerful stuff, right?? i like it.. but ok, so a quick update.. i'm trying to mend a friendship now, but i don't know if it's going to work.. jason sent her a text and told her that i missed her and i guess he apologized (this is what he told me), and they exchanged a few texts, and then jason called me and told me that i needed to text her, so i did, and i haven't heard anything back.. i don't know... i'm trying to work this out, because i miss her so bad it's not funny.. i think about her every day, multiple times a day, and it's a horrible feeling that i have in the pit of my stomach... hopefully we can work through our differences and work things out because i do miss her terribly.. but god has a plan, and it's up to him whether we make it as friends or not... so i'm putting this in god;s hands...

insomnia.....

ok, so i have a little problem.. as you can guess from the title of this posting, i have developed insomnia.. it's not as fun as i always used to imagine it as a kid... it was about 6am yesterday when i got to sleep, and it was 8am this morning... and i don't sleep that much when i do sleep.. it's like a half sleep that leaves you feeling more drained than when you laid down.. :( i can' t seem to find any solution for this either.. i tried all the old wives tale remedies (ie-warm milk *BLEH*!!!, warm shower, warm decaf tea..) yea, nothing worked... so i watched the BEAUTIFUL sunrise by myself, and then i went and laid down with jason at 7, and fell "asleep" at somewhere between 8 and 8:30... so i'm a little grouchy and moody today, and then i started feeling really nostalgic, and i started thinking about someone that i was friends with not too long ago, and i realize just how bad i miss her and her son, and how i wish i could be there for her right now because she's having a hard time, but i don't see any way for that to be possible, because she decided that she didn't want to talk to me because of someone that i've been friends with for a few years now, and it drives me insane.. but i need to quit ranting and find something to make for jason for dinner...