friends

i had a good night.. even with the rain showers and the cloud of sadness that was hanging over everyone... today was cody's viewing (which i didn't know about until about an hour before it was over)... tomorrow is cody's funeral... and tomorrow night at the mack they're going to have a memorial service for cody.. all the guys are going to do a dedicated ride.. i want more than anything to go, but it all depends on jason.. and i hate that.. but, i guess when you're married you have to make sacrifices..

but on a good note... i got to see lauren tonight!!! and i realized exactly how much i've missed her.. it has been aweful without her around!!! i had such a good time with her, and even despite our falling out, we still made it through it.. i am so glad to have her back in my life.. i hope we don't ever have another falling out like this, because i was so sad and miserable without her, i don't want to do it again!!! but ok.. time for bed...