fight night

my brother dusty had a fight last night at the iron tiger challenge at bellefontaine high school (man, that place is so much different now....).. he was the main event!!!! here's some pics!!

Here he is walking out..
He weighed in at 152..

Vs. Bo Smith

This was the last pic i got before Bo picked Dusty up and slammed him on his head... It knocked Dusty out.. He was down for around 2-3 minutes.. The scariest 2-3 minutes of my life thus far... But it was even worse when he sat up... There was nothing to his eyes for about a minute... He doesn't remember the slam, but he watched it on the video... He was totally dominating the match before the slam... Dusty told me "Oh well, it happens.. I'm going back to the gym tomorrow, and I'm fighting again either Feb. 21st or 28th.." He finds out the date this week.. It's in Muncie, IN.. And, I'm hoping to be there.. I am so proud of Dusty.. I will support him and his fighting until I'm dead and gone, and even then, I'll still be there with him..

He's feeling just fine today, doesn't even have a headache.. That's my dork boy... Hope you enjoyed the pics!!

a little scared...

i have to call the doctor tomorrow (today) when i get up, so i can find out 1-how much an office visit costs, 2-how much a diabetes test costs, and 3-how soon jason can get in... this scares me so much because his mom was in her early 50's when diabetes killed her.. i don't know what we're going to do if he is diabetic, because we're both unemployed, and we wouldn't be able to afford the testing meter, strips, and medication... i don't know what we'll do... i'm so scared that he's diabetic and something's going to happen to him and i'm going to lose him young... i never realized how much the thought of losing someone could scare you... i just want to cry right now, but i have to stay strong for him, because he's terrified... i just don't know... i don't think there are any words to describe the feeling i have now, because it's more than fear... but i know God has a plan, and whatever is meant to be will be..... all i can do is pray...

a little behind...

Okay, so I'm sitting here playing around on the computer, and it just dawned on me that I haven't put any pictures up from Christmas, or Mom's birthday dinner!!! So, better late than never, right?? Here they are!!!

DJ (my step brother) and Alana.

My nieces (step-sister's fiance's girls) Shauna and Cloie.

My niece Cloie, Troy (my step-sister's fiance'), my niece Chelsea, and my brother Dusty.

My nephew Kaden, my step-sister Ashley, and my nephew Ryan.

This was at Mom's birthday dinner... It was SO funny!! Someone had made her a special cheesecake (because she's gluten-intolerant and can't eat graham cracker crust), and the waiter brought out a spoonful of whipped cream for it, and put it up to my mom's mouth, so she played along and took a bite of the whipped cream, and the waiter smeared it to the side... It was HILARIOUS!!!!


And here's a few pics of my new haircut that i got the week before Christmas.. My good friend Mallory is going to the Paul Mitchell school in Columbus, and she came up and hung out and chopped my hair off.. I love that girl!!!


This is ChewbEcca.. She is Mallory and my creation. She looks like a puppy, doesn't she? I actually had to argue with a few people who tried saying that I got a new puppy.. Hahaha!!!


I did my hair in like 10 minutes with just a blow-drier and a paddle brush!! I LOVE IT!!




Here I used some hair gel, hairspray, and 2 barrettes.. I LOVE IT AGAIN!!!


I asked Jason to take a picture so I could get a straight forward shot without my arms looking retarded.. (lol)


And lastly, here I am New Year's Eve, waiting on a few friends to show up.. This is just some glittery spray gel and some hairspray. I love how easy it is to style my hair, and the fact I don't have to style it for it to look good!! AND that it's too short to go into a pony-tail!!!

But, okay.. I think that's enough for now.. Hahaha!!

Happy New Year!!

Hope your New Year started out better than mine!! Hope it's Happy, Healthy, Safe, and Full of Love!!!

Merry Christmas!!!

Just wanted to say MERRY CHRISTMAS to ALL, because it'll be after Christmas before I get a chance to get back on here.. But when I get back on, I'll have Christmas pics!!! So I hope everyone has a blessed, joyous Christmas!!

update

ok.. so i'm not working anywhere right now... not sure how soon something's going to come my way... all i can do is keep trying... so now i'm stressed about bills, gas, food, christmas... i don't know what i'm going to do.. i filed for unemployment, but its still pending, so i have no clue for right now... i don't know.. but its pretty sad when anti-depressant medication doesn't even help.. i just want to cry right now... i don't know.. i just wish that i could find a hole, curl up in it, and cry until i feel better...

Jason's tattoo

This was done last night.. If you look closely at the cross, you can see the original cross that he was getting covered... A brief description of this piece is: a cross (obviously! lol), bottom left is a warrior, bottom right is an eagle, top right is a sun, top left in a moon, and just above the cross is Jason's zodiac symbol... Tobe is AMAZING!!!!

i just want to say...

grrrr...

a little more to my tattoo

so i went in tonight and got some shading done on my tattoo.. we were going to do the color tonight, but my upper back was killing me, and my leg kept twitching, so i'm going back in a few weeks to get the color.. but here's the progress..

A Soldier's Silent Night

Please pass this on and please, PLEASE remember our soldiers. Happy Thanksgiving, and Merry Christmas.. We wouldn't be able to enjoy these holidays if it weren't for the brave men and women of the United States Military.

TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS,
HE LIVED ALL ALONE,
IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE
MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE.

I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY
WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE,
AND TO SEE JUST WHO
IN THIS HOME DID LIVE.

I LOOKED ALL ABOUT,
A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE,
NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS,
NOT EVEN A TREE.

NO STOCKING BY MANTLE,
JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND,
ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES
OF FAR DISTANT LANDS.

WITH MEDALS AND BADGES,
AWARDS OF ALL KINDS,
A SOBER THOUGHT
CAME THROUGH MY MIND.

FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT,
IT WAS DARK AND DREARY,
I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER,
ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY.

THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING,
SILENT, ALONE,
CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR
IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME.

THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE,
THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER,
NOT HOW I PICTURED
A UNITED STATES SOLDIER.

WAS THIS THE HERO
OF WHOM I'D JUST READ?
CURLED UP ON A PONCHO,
THE FLOOR FOR A BED?

I REALIZED THE FAMILIES
THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT,
OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERS
WHO WERE WILLING TO FIGHT.

SOON ROUND THE WORLD,
THE CHILDREN WOULD PLAY,
AND GROWNUPS WOULD CELEBRATE
A BRIGHT CHRISTMAS DAY.

THEY ALL ENJOYED FREEDOM
EACH MONTH OF THE YEAR,
BECAUSE OF THE SOLDIERS,
LIKE THE ONE LYING HERE.

I COULDN'T HELP WONDER
HOW MANY LAY ALONE,
ON A COLD CHRISTMAS EVE
IN A LAND FAR FROM HOME.

THE VERY THOUGHT
BROUGHT A TEAR TO MY EYE,
I DROPPED TO MY KNEES
AND STARTED TO CRY;

THE SOLDIER AWAKENED
AND I HEARD A ROUGH VOICE,
"SANTA DON'T CRY,
THIS LIFE IS MY CHOICE;

I FIGHT FOR FREEDOM,
I DON'T ASK FOR MORE,
MY LIFE IS MY GOD,
MY COUNTRY, MY CORPS."

THE SOLDIER ROLLED OVER
AND DRIFTED TO SLEEP,
I COULDN'T CONTROL IT,
I CONTINUED TO WEEP.

I KEPT WATCH FOR HOURS,
SO SILENT AND STILL
AND WE BOTH SHIVERED
FROM THE COLD NIGHT'S CHILL.

I DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE
ON THAT COLD, DARK, NIGHT,
THIS GUARDIAN OF HONOR
SO WILLING TO FIGHT.

THEN THE SOLDIER ROLLED OVER,
WITH A VOICE SOFT AND PURE,
WHISPERED, "CARRY ON SANTA,
IT'S CHRISTMAS DAY, ALL IS SECURE."

ONE LOOK AT MY WATCH,
AND I KNEW HE WAS RIGHT.
"MERRY CHRISTMAS MY FRIEND,
AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT."